work professionalism

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......

fiuh. I hope it makes me feel better. 

aku baru sadar kalo working world is definitely different than school work. You will never know who are u meeting, whether is bitch, jerks, or some really nice people. 

Yeah, maybe this is cuman challenge pertama yang membuat aku akan smakin kuat menghadapi angin2 di dunia make up. Ok, maybe smua bingung what the hell am i talking abt?

smua bermula dari photoshoot kemaren, I actually did the make up supaya bisa dapet model for saturday. and after i did the make up ytd, she cancels of for saturday shots. I was kinda angry actually. and i msg her that i understand her stand, tapi kan kita uda buat deal barteran tugas. And she all nasty things.  I keep replying back as i was in my emo state.

And what i did not realise is, I am ruining my own name in that MUA's world. I felt like it's initially her fault as she really makes me said nasty things back to her but, I don't think so. Maybe I am being unprofessional here. Maybe I am too pushy. Maybe all of that is definitely true. 

Gosh, I have to have lotsa work to do with my attitude. Maybe I have to really really change. This working world is hard. 

Hope i can stand here for long! wish me luck

just another thought

It's been sometimes since the last time I posted a thought of mine here. And apparently, my life has changed so drastic since that time. First of all, I AM SINGLE. Yeap, no more boyfriend, no more family (both bf's and mine) issue, no crying, no fight and all those blablabla accompany the word Boyfriend.

well, what do I feel anyway? hmm...shockingly, It is relieving. I mean, it's not that i don't like him anymore and the feeling is just dissapear in a minute but, i feel lighter. Seriously. I am still talking with him almost everyday (or yeah okay it's everyday) and it's just not for me anymore. I started to see all those things that annoys me in him. He's ignorant attitude and all those thoughts that actually kinda bugging me all these years.

Do u regret it? YES DEFINITELY. Not that I regret dating him these fucking 3 years, but regret his decision to give up. I just can't believe. I might not be perfect and all but at least we were doing quite a good job all these years and i emphasise on the word WE because yeah, that was a team work and NOT just him being the nice guy in the relationship.

Right this moment, I just want to concentrate on the work both as make up artist and chemistry industry. That's all